i have some challenging decisions to make re: communicating with abusive people in my life. i don’t know if i’m ready but life is giving me reasons. i’ve been feeling more capable of being myself than usual lately, and i’m honestly afraid of endangering that, but i’m also probably more well-equipped for turmoil than ever before. i’ve got a few days to think about this, i wonder what will come out of it.
meeting people who are earnest and bright and admiring them so much and also being a little scared because i’m reminded of how cautious and guarded i can be and i’m burning bright this week but what if i lose it and seeing your fire recalls how painfully long i’ve been dimmed
meowwwww. i had a fun weekend in seattle and now i’m home! things are nice.
help, i cant stop grabbing my own ass
going to a city an hour away for a couple of days should not require this much preparation and overpacking. i need all of the things though, you know?